As happy as i can be.....

being away from my.hubby, mmg sgt menguji seluruh jiwa raga ini. En. Afeeq bukanlah seorg yg romantik, bukan juga seorg yg expressive, n bukan seorg seorg pemadah, pemuisi..(BM die fail ok...wpun dlm SPM dpt A1..hehhee)..so kadang2, mmg susah aku nk tau ape yg difikirkannya...kadang2 mmg terasa diabaikan, tidak diperlukan, n sume pemikiran negatif2 itu...wpun aku boleh baca air muka dia, n aku boleh agak apekah perasaan die time tu, tp selalunya salah la kan...utk menjadi tepat...erm....ade jugakla kadang2 tu...masih belajar lagi....

on the contrary, aku ni, sgtlah expressive orgnya...wpun aku try nk kaver2 muka aku ni, tp dgn mudahnya org akan tau ape yg aku tgh rasakan time tu. org yg plg hebat meneka - en. afeeq la...sape lagi...aku tarik muka sket, die dah tau dah....aku ckp kat fon lain mcm sket pun, die tau jugak...hebat2....

mentor aku ade bgtau, in life we will have 4 phases -
1. giving signals - courting
2. getting to know each other - falling in love
3. taking responsibility - static condition
4. don't bother any more - plateau decreased

hmm....susah nk comment. yg pastinya, aku rasa ade gak betulnya tu...sbb bukan senang nk maintain perasaan cinta, sayang, sepanjang masa...it takes full effort from both side, bukan sorg je...klu sorg je, confirm la xkan jadi...

so tadi masa kat office, mentor aku tanya, in 1 day how many times en.afeeq akan call aku. n bila aku jwb "he's busy during working hours, but he will call me during nights". then dgn selambenye mentor aku ckp, aku dah masuk dlm phase 3 in our relationship, n die kate itu cepat sgt..aku terus ckp dlm ati "hmmmm.....phase 3 time weekdays, tp phase 2 during weekends, so ok what..." so aku direct je balas balik, aku ckp "distance is good. i got something to look forward to during fridays - waiting for him to come back to me. it is such a great feeling, that no words can describe it, unless u feel it urself" then die terus reply "good" ahahha..dah tatau nk reply balik la tu.. ;p

wpun berjauhan, aku mendapat sesuatu yg org lain xkan dapat - aku dapat rasakan setiap weekend itu adalah honeymoon aku, n it is a great feeling. xkesahlah, org nk ckp ape2 (eh, jgn xtau, ramai je yg komen, ckp susahlah kitorg nk dpt anak, percaya ke x suami jauh kat sane, susah la travel subang-segambut tiap2 minggu, etc) hmm....aku skrg ni senang je menjawab "Nabi dgn Khadijah pun same2 busy gak. bahagia je rumah tangga dorg" he he he he he...

konklusi: im happy with my current life, happy with my marriage, n hopefully, Allah akan memberkati rumah tangga kami, dan rasa kasih sayang antara kitorg terus kekal sampai bila2....insyaAllah.... ;)

p/s - aku tatau apekah significantnyer cerita aku arini. berterabur! klu karangan ni sure dah fail ni. tp itulah...hati n otak xselari...masing2 ada perkara yg nk diluahkan, tp di sini bukanlah platform yg paling sesuai...hmm~ time to call either mr. hubby or girlfren aku ni...huhuhuhu....