TRAUMA

dunno why i suddenly decided to talk, or merapu bout this particular subject. maybe because my latest trauma is still inside my head, & i can't push it out, yet...

dah byk kali jugak rupanya aku merasai pengalaman trauma ni...seawal umur aku 5thn, to be exact...my list of traumas, as per below...

1. 1988 - umur 5thn, kene langgar kereta, betul2 depan rumah...patah peha kiri, yg menyebabkan aku suffer until now, especially masa pregnant...xperlu elaborate pjg2 kot...
2. Nov 1997 - my dear father passed away in his sleep...xsempat nk mintak maaf pn...
3. 2002 - sy TERpatahkan tgn kawan sy time sparring silat....err....rasa pn sepak kuat, tp tah cane, trus dgr bunyi "crack" then minah tu menjerit2...rasa bersalah sampai skrg ok...
4. 2004 - sy disengat kala jengking...duk kt Hutan KIY kan...so bykla spesis hidupan liar ni...immediate effect ok! trus menggigil, rasa nk pengsan...seb baik ade member trus bwk gi hospital...trus kene jab, sampai 2x, baru la rasa ok...lepas tu rasa "high"...hahahaha...seb baik Dina ada sbgai penyelamat...klu x, xtau la ke mana ai mlm tu...ngee~
5. 2008 - a stupid very very idiotic man buat salah kt ai, sampai free2 je die kene penampar dari ai...& knp nk trauma plak?? sbb itu first time tgn ni naik ke muka org..& perasaan tu sgtla tabes sbnrnyer....hopefully xkn jadi lagi la...
6. Feb 2010 - lokasi : office kt tower 2 klcc. hmm~ malas nk elaborate..tp kdg2 still teringt pasal hal tu...
7. Apr 2010 - trauma melahirkan Aqeef Nahdan...dgn menanggung kesakitan selama 14jam, dgn pelbagai post delivery complications...xtaula cane ai nk hadapi this 2nd delivery ni...
8. Dec 2010 - subsequent trauma from Feb 2010 continues...but this time lebih traumatic dari yg lepas2...sampai sekarang effectnye masih dirasai...i was depressed for more than 4 months...skrg dah slowly recovering....insyaAllah..
9. April 2011 - Aqeef terjatuh, muka headfirst kene pada armrest kerusi, then badan die stat kejat, keras, mata dah ke atas, & die terus hilang suara....for almost 1 minit aqeef mcm tu....mmg 1 pengalaman yg menakutkan..trus bwk die gi klinik, die ok lepas tu..tp mcm blur2 sket...tp skrg alhamdulillah...nampak dah back to normal...

hopefully tade lagi insiden2 traumatic yg aku perlu lalui lepas ni.....xdpt nk tanggung dah kot rasanya...esp yg melibatkan Dec 2010 event....huhuhu...

ape point entry ni sbnrnyer ek?? tade point pn ekceli...cume tgh boring hubby tade kt rumah, aqeef tido awal mlm ni, & mak ai pn kuar gi wedding...so saje nk capturekan all the things that comes into my mind right now..

tp, main point is, trauma2 itu sebenarnye adalah ujian Allah utk hamba2nya...nk tgk sejauh mana kekuatan kita utk bersabar, & sentiasa memohon pertolongan dari-Nya..& mungkin utk ingtkan kita, bila kita dah mula lalai daripada mengingati-Nya...

whatever it is, in everything that we do, Allah should be our main priority...