can u imagine, since the day i went to Klinik Dr. Jeya in Subang jaya SS19 (that shud be around a month ago), my 1st pregnancy test (yg turns out slight positive tu), i've been having major headache, all day long, every day, non-stop!!! kalau stop pun, time aku tido je...bukak mata je, kepala stat sakit balik..........
so, that amount to 1 month of headaches...and arini, aku mmg sgt xtahan dah....mcm ada besi tgh potong kepala ni....die sakit in 1 line only tau, but on that particular line, kepala aku sgt panas, kesakitan yg menjadi2, esp time petang2....
so aku officially announcekan diriku sendiri yg my morning sickness turns out to be my evening sickness... --> nk tunggu gyne lambat sgt. biar aku yg decidekan utk diri sendiri..
the worst part is, aku xleh nk amik sebarang ubat (even panadol pun xleh ok!), and abi pun tade nk tlg picitkan kepala...so terpakse tanggung sendirian...
now i know, it is easy to be laid and have a baby, but the process of having that baby itself is hard!! (esp when ur facing it all alone..i know Abi is always there, virtually...but i do feel kinda alone sometimes)..i am happy, dont get me wrong. if fact, akulah org paling bersyukur sekali..and barulah aku tau, mmg patut anak2 kenang jasa ibu bapa dorg, ibu dorg esp....with all these hardships, no wonder Allah sendiri dah kata, syurga itu di bawah telapak kaki ibu...
im not saying that syurga is under my feet (for now), but ini mmg menguji kesabaran, and menginsafkan as well...
Dear Allah, give me strength to carry on this task of mine, and give my husband the strength to be patient with both of us, and help me to go through Ramadhan, while carrying this lil child of ours, but still, continue as much as i can to be your faitful servant....AMEEN....
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